[ Laughing softly, he kisses Kojiro before he moves too far away to reach. Kaoru sits up as well, wanting to see everything that Kojiro has to offer. In the shower on the night they'd confessed to each other, he'd done his best not to let his gaze linger anywhere—now, his eyes hungrily drink in every bit of skin that Kojiro offers up. When he finally pushes off his boxers, Kaoru freezes for a moment at the sight of him hard, his body throbbing with a fresh wave of arousal. ]
Fuck, you're so hot. [ He reaches out, hands moving like they're being drawn forward by a magnet, totally out of his control. Brushing his fingers along the underside, he rubs his palm over the tip and then loosely wraps his hand around him to stroke down to the base. ] You're fucking huge, holy shit.
[ His other hand reaches for the back of Kojiro's neck and pulls him into a kiss, hot and messy as he opens his mouth in a shaky moan. ] One finger to start, yeah.
[The way Kaoru looks at him is almost intimidating. There is something raw in his gaze that Kojirou had never seen in any of his partners before. And when he touches him, it's like an electric shock.]
Kaoru...
[Kojirou moans, as a warning or maybe out of pleasure. But the touch and the kiss and all that Kaoru does just makes his body flare up with a new wave of desire. Damn, he wants this boy so much and so hard it's almost a sin. He kisses back just as sloppy, and needy, and ready to go. He presses between Kaoru's legs for a moment, rubbing their cocks together and making the other lay down again.]
Alright, okay. I can do that.
[He tells it more to himself than to Kaoru at this point. So he takes the bottle into his trembling hand and plasters some lube over his fingers. He is nervous, but god he is hard and that gives him the strength to go on and reach between Kaoru's legs, padding at his entrance. It feels different than what he is used to, but he is soft and gentle as he circles it first then pushes in.]
[ The kiss is as reassuring as it is arousing because he can taste how badly Kojiro wants this. Any doubts he'd had are slowly melting out of Kaoru's mind and leaving behind an absence of thought in the face of what he knows is going to be overwhelming pleasure. Even if Kojiro doesn't know what he's doing, even if neither of them lasts very long, the fact that he's making love with Kojiro is the most blissful and satisfying kind of pleasure he can imagine.
Groaning as their hips press together, he ruts up once or twice before accepting the ways Kojiro tries to get him to lay back down. He spreads his legs wider apart, one hooked around Kojiro's hip to keep him close. The first press of cold lube makes him tense up, but he laughs breathlessly because fuck, it still feels so good. It warms as Kojiro tests the waters, and by the time he starts pressing inside, Kaoru has willed himself to relax enough to accept it. ]
Just like that. [ He smooths a hand up his own body, over a nipple, up into his hair so he can push it back from his face. ] God, even your fingers are big.
[Kojirou follows the movement of Kaoru's hand, and so wants to follow it with his tongue too. It's like he wants not only just touch but taste him all the time. Though his remark makes him blush from the back of his neck through his ears to his cheeks, he can feel it.
Kaoru is warm inside, warmer than Kojirou thought. His eyes are glued to his face as he slides his finger deeper. He can feel Kaoru strain, so he keeps it slow, but keeps at it. He wonders if there will be a time when he'll be able to make Kaoru come just on his fingers, how hot that would be. But Kojirou knows he needs a lot of practice for that. Practice he is willing to do, oh yes.]
Does it- does it feel good?
[Kojirou can't help to ask as he is slowly fucking Kaoru with one finger for now.]
[ Kaoru moans as the finger pushes a little deeper, eyes closing with the pleasure it brings. When he looks back up at Kojiro, he's a little startled to see him focusing on his face rather than between his legs. Somehow, it feels more intimate this way, and he blushes hot across his cheeks and the bridge of his nose. ]
Yeah, it's good. [ He squirms a bit when Kojiro's finger brushes past his prostate and Kaoru reaches blindly for his other hand. Once he finds it, he laces their fingers together and lifts them to rest on his stomach. ] Go a little deeper.
[Kojirou smiles and he feels his blush more intense than before. He's a little alarmed when Kaoru takes his other hand, but as he is just holding it he grins. He lifts it to his lips and kisses their intervened fingers then continues as Kaoru instructed.
He pushes in deeper, slow but firmly. Pulling out almost all the way, before going back in. He slowly makes small circles, trying to open Kaoru up even more.]
Can I put in more?
[Kojirou asks when he feels less resistance from when he started. Sweat breaks on his forehead as he is trying g to keep his excitement at bay for now.]
[ The sweetness of the kisses melts more of the tightness of his body, calming in how Kojiro is still so tender and... loving. It's something Kaoru hasn't fully experienced during sex, something that Ainosuke didn't seem to have a concept of and had been unwilling to practice. In contrast, Kojiro does it so naturally that it feels twice as good, opening Kaoru up physically as well as emotionally.
Gasping a little at the circles, he nods while squeezing Kojiro's hand. ] Y-yeah, one more.
[Kojirou repeats as he pulls out and coats more of his fingers. He may overdo the amount it, but he doesn't want to hurt Kaoru, not even accidentally. So when he is back, he presses in with two fingers, looking out for Kaoru's reactions. He likes the gasps and moans he gets, he likes to know that it's him who makes Kaoru make those sounds. That he can make Kaoru give sounds of pleasure.
If he could he would make love to Kaoru all the time... always. Just for those sounds.
His fingers are still slow, sliding in deep and deeper, parting a little before sliding out just a bit. The movement and the sensation start to get familiar to Kojirou and he starts gaining more confidence in them.]
[ Whining at the loss and then biting back the noise which sounds far too desperate for what's supposed to be a tender moment, Kaoru focuses on steadying his breath as he waits for Kojiro. He's just as slow and caring when he pushes back in, this time the stretch more noticeable than before. Kaoru moves a bit, digging his heels into the bed and shifting his hips to improve the angle. Despite the pain, he also feels the building need for more yet doesn't want to push Kojiro if he needs to continue taking things slow. Something else, then, to compromise. ]
Hey, um, hook your fingers up a bit when you're pulling out. [ His face is burning red, because even though he doesn't mind explaining these things to Kojiro who he knows is willing to learn, it's still a little embarrassing. ]
[Kojirou tries to keep up as Kaoru angles his hips, licking his lips in concentration. But it's seriously the hottest thing.
And the Kaoru tells him that and Kojirou freezes. His eyes are wide as he is staring at Kaoru's face, his brain processing what he had just heard. Cock twitching in excitement. His voice breaks as he speaks.]
Okay.
[And he does just that. As he pulls out he curls his fingers in an experimental way at first.]
[ Kaoru watches nervously for a reaction, but his eyes follow Kojiro's tongue and he thinks that this is going to be okay. Kojiro hasn't seemed turned off yet, and a quick glance reassures Kaoru that yes, he's still very much hard. He's also instantly following the direction, and it's so close that Kaoru nearly sobs. It helps stretch him further, too, and after a few more loops of pushing in and then crooking his fingers on the way back, Kaoru's wiggling his hips down to get more. ]
[With a soft 'fuck' Kojirou does as Kaoru pleads. His hand is trembling as he goes deeper, and he picks up his pace too. Now that he has some idea how this is going he has to admit this is terribly different from porn, not even close!]
Like this?
[He asks in a breath, watching Kaoru's every movement and squirming, and... oh god. Porn is nice, yes, but the real thing is even better. ]
You must stop being so sexy or I won't last, Kaoru...
[ He has a retort poised on the tip of his tongue, ready to chastize Kojiro for thinking Kaoru is putting any effort into looking sexy. There's also a point to be made for not trying to last, for giving in when they feel pleasure and not trying to perform to some kind of standard or expectation. All of that goes out the window when Kojiro drags the tips of both fingers over his prostate and stars explode into Kaoru's vision. He gasps so quickly that it catches in his throat as his back arches, the sound escaping a moment later when it dissolves into moans and curses. Just like that, he's gone from cautious preparation to desperate need. ]
[The noise Kojirou makes when Kaoru demands that is something he is not proud of. But the ringing of his ears he gets from excitement makes him forget it in a moment.
He pulls out his fingers, and for a moment he's at a loss what to do. It's thanks to all those occasions when he had to scramble to put on a condom before he slid into anyone.
But this is Kaoru, who said it's okay without a condom.
This is Kaoru.
He's going to fuck Kaoru, it dawns on Kojirou once again. Then he takes the lube and coats himself all too fast and messy. Without any further hesitation, he is back between Kaoru's legs, leaning over him.]
Then, I'm gonna take you now, Kaoru...
[His voice is strained as he states that, holding Kaoru's thigh with one hand and positions himself with the other to push in. Slowly at first. Going steady, but not stopping.]
[ Moaning when he’s left feeling empty, Kaoru looks up at Kojiro as he hesitates. This is the point of no return, which he’s probably realizing; once they do this together, their relationship will be different than ever before. When Kojiro stutters back into motion, Kaoru smiles up at him and waits until he’s closer to lean up long enough steal a kiss. ]
I’m yours to take.
[ He hooks a hand beneath the knee of the leg Kojiro isn’t pressing against, opening himself and blushing brightly at the fact. Having someone between his thighs isn’t new, but having someone as sweet and caring as Kojiro definitely is. Kaoru can feel his tenderness as he pushes in slowly, thicker than his fingers but a manageable stretch. It feels like the air is being forced from his lungs, and as he stares up into Kojiro’s concentrated expression, tears well up in the corners of his eyes and force him to squeeze them shut. ]
[As Kojirou is sliding in, he has to note that two fingers may not have been enough... He should've told it to Kaoru. Not to brag, but for his own safety. But he can't stop now, not anymore. Not after Kaoru just said that.
When he lets his cock go as it slides in halfway, he grabs at Kaoru's other thigh, just to feel his hand there. Kojirou covers it with his and leans close to Kaoru again.
His expression makes his heart twist. Is he in pain? Or is it good? Because Kojirou feels so good his legs are already going numb.]
Kaoru, you feel so fucking good.
[Kojirou hisses and leans in to kiss Kaoru's forehead, working his hips in small thrust for now, just like he did with his fingers. He groans as all that movement and the closeness of Kaoru is already getting too overwhelming. He tilts his head to kiss the other's cheek, then down his jaw, just to arrive at his lips again. Kojirou is breathless yet he demands a slow kiss as if wanting to be closer to Kaoru than he already is.]
[ His size is worthy of bragging about, and Kaoru can feel every bit of it as Kojiro presses deeper inside of him. It steals his breath away, and it's not until Kojiro's hand covers his own that he remembers to breathe. That helps him relax, and he continues pulling in steady breaths through his nose and exhaling slowly through his mouth. There's pain, but more than that, his tears have a very different source. ]
I love you, Kojiro. [ He moves his hand to tangle his fingers with Kojiro's, looking up at him with a watery smile. The first thrust makes him gasp in surprise and tighten up a bit, but he wills himself to relax again. ] Fuck, you feel good, too. G-go slowly for now.
[Kojirou's throat suddenly tightens. Not because of the nerves, but because Kaoru just confessed and he- Did he do that before? Kojirou always knew that Kaoru loves him, but hearing it out loud is very different. It hits almost like a punch.]
I love you too, Kaoru.
[He whispers, his throat is dry so his voice cracks. He leans in to kiss Kaoru again, laughing too.]
Love you too.
[He repeats, as he slows down, out of rhythm still. He is trying to get used to all the sensations too, all that's happening, and trying to make it good for Kaoru too. Because, god Kojirou feels good...]
[ The words echoed back at him run through his body like electricity, making him shiver as he clings to Kojiro. Even without moving much, being like this together is it’s own pleasure. He can feel every line of Kojiro’s body, both inside and above him, and he presses closer to feel more of that. His fingertips press into Kojiro’s back and trace over the muscles there, careful not to scratch his skin while he has the mind to think of it. Already he’s addicted to this, the connection he feels beyond the desire for climax; this is sex with love on both sides, true and deep and precious to Kaoru. ]
God, I’m never letting you go after this. [ He laughs and rolls his hips experimentally, moaning when it stretches him in all the right ways. ] You can move, Kojiro, I won’t break.
[Kojirou laughs breathless too, though it turns into a moan as Kaoru moves his hips. His heart is beating so fast Kojirou is not sure it will ever calm down after this. He feels it in all his body, along with the sharp jolts of pleasure he gets as he thrusts in. So this is love. A form of love. It must be. Because he is so happy he could die. It's exactly what he wanted, what he needed, what they both needed... And Kojirou swears to do it again and again so Kaoru will never forget how much he loves him.
With a deep breath he picks up his pace, closer to one that his body demands.]
I only- I want it good for you. Want it to be the best you have.
[He speaks and it must be the high of sex, he admits it, all that raw need and maybe the need to prove too. Then he hitches one of Kaoru's leg up his shoulder so he can reach around to wrap his hand around his dick. It's hot and hard in his hand, making Koirou breathless once again.]
[ Kaoru never imagined he’d be laughing during sex, yet here he is, so full of love and happiness that it spills over and out of him in the form of giddy chuckles. He kisses Kojiro when he can, when he isn’t gasping for breath or mumbling soft words of encouragement to him. His body grows more and more pliant as the tension melts away and he’s left with nothing but pleasure.
Tensing at the thought, at the implications of it, he reaches up to run his hands through Kojiro’s hair. He doesn’t know how to articulate it, but the fact that he’s even thinking about it that way means he’s already succeeded. Now isn’t the time to bring up Ainosuke or his selfish views on love and sex; this moment is for Kojiro and Kaoru alone. He’s about to say so when Kojiro adjusts their position and it makes him sink even deeper into Kaoru right as he touches his cock. Back arching, he moans sharply at the sudden spike in sensation. ] Oh god, you already are. Kojiro, you feel so amazing.
[Kojirou told Kaoru that he loves him, but he hears him laugh and moan and move under him he feels like he has to tell him again because since then he loves him more! With every kiss, with every glance, he loves Kaoru even more.
His body alarms him all too suddenly that Kojirou has barely any time to react. He picks up his pace and falling out of rhythm as he is reaching for his orgasm in an all too rushed manner. His voice is thick with arousal and warning as he calls Kaoru's name.]
[ It’s easy to tell from the change in pace that Kojiro is getting close. His hips snap forward with more force, faster for their lack of planned beat. Kaoru digs his fingers into his back and drags him closer. He can feel his own orgasm on the horizon, more distant than Kojiro’s but closer now as he’s fucked between twin sensations of his hips and his hand. Moaning his name, he does his best to meet each thrust, but it’s difficult to keep up with the rapid pace. ]
[Those words must the sexiest thing Kojirou has ever heard. They must be because he feels breathless. As if his lungs are all too small to contain all that air he wants to pump into them. Sweat rolls down his temples and back from the intensity of it all.
He calls Kaoru's name and his hips snap against the other all too sharply. Kojirou's eyes flutter shut and he leans his forehead down on Kaoru's chest as he comes. It feels like an all too fast roller coaster ride, with always one more peak to take.
Even in all his pleasure, Kojirou is trying his best to at least stroke the other the best he can.]
[ When Kojiro bends over him, Kaoru drags his fingers up the back of his neck to sink into his hair and hold him close. He feels when his orgasm hits and the way it shakes through them both, warmth filling Kaoru and making him moan Kojiro’s name. He’s so close, hips bucking down as if he’ll be able to get Kojiro any deeper and angling to rub his prostate against his cock before it softens. All the while he babbles meaningless phrases about needing more and wanting Kojiro and being close. Finally, his pleasure crests as Kojiro rubs the sensitive spot beneath the head of his cock and he comes into his hand as his back arches off of the bed and up towards Kojiro. ]
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Fuck, you're so hot. [ He reaches out, hands moving like they're being drawn forward by a magnet, totally out of his control. Brushing his fingers along the underside, he rubs his palm over the tip and then loosely wraps his hand around him to stroke down to the base. ] You're fucking huge, holy shit.
[ His other hand reaches for the back of Kojiro's neck and pulls him into a kiss, hot and messy as he opens his mouth in a shaky moan. ] One finger to start, yeah.
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Kaoru...
[Kojirou moans, as a warning or maybe out of pleasure. But the touch and the kiss and all that Kaoru does just makes his body flare up with a new wave of desire. Damn, he wants this boy so much and so hard it's almost a sin. He kisses back just as sloppy, and needy, and ready to go. He presses between Kaoru's legs for a moment, rubbing their cocks together and making the other lay down again.]
Alright, okay. I can do that.
[He tells it more to himself than to Kaoru at this point. So he takes the bottle into his trembling hand and plasters some lube over his fingers. He is nervous, but god he is hard and that gives him the strength to go on and reach between Kaoru's legs, padding at his entrance. It feels different than what he is used to, but he is soft and gentle as he circles it first then pushes in.]
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Groaning as their hips press together, he ruts up once or twice before accepting the ways Kojiro tries to get him to lay back down. He spreads his legs wider apart, one hooked around Kojiro's hip to keep him close. The first press of cold lube makes him tense up, but he laughs breathlessly because fuck, it still feels so good. It warms as Kojiro tests the waters, and by the time he starts pressing inside, Kaoru has willed himself to relax enough to accept it. ]
Just like that. [ He smooths a hand up his own body, over a nipple, up into his hair so he can push it back from his face. ] God, even your fingers are big.
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Kaoru is warm inside, warmer than Kojirou thought. His eyes are glued to his face as he slides his finger deeper. He can feel Kaoru strain, so he keeps it slow, but keeps at it. He wonders if there will be a time when he'll be able to make Kaoru come just on his fingers, how hot that would be. But Kojirou knows he needs a lot of practice for that. Practice he is willing to do, oh yes.]
Does it- does it feel good?
[Kojirou can't help to ask as he is slowly fucking Kaoru with one finger for now.]
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Yeah, it's good. [ He squirms a bit when Kojiro's finger brushes past his prostate and Kaoru reaches blindly for his other hand. Once he finds it, he laces their fingers together and lifts them to rest on his stomach. ] Go a little deeper.
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He pushes in deeper, slow but firmly. Pulling out almost all the way, before going back in. He slowly makes small circles, trying to open Kaoru up even more.]
Can I put in more?
[Kojirou asks when he feels less resistance from when he started. Sweat breaks on his forehead as he is trying g to keep his excitement at bay for now.]
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Gasping a little at the circles, he nods while squeezing Kojiro's hand. ] Y-yeah, one more.
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[Kojirou repeats as he pulls out and coats more of his fingers. He may overdo the amount it, but he doesn't want to hurt Kaoru, not even accidentally. So when he is back, he presses in with two fingers, looking out for Kaoru's reactions. He likes the gasps and moans he gets, he likes to know that it's him who makes Kaoru make those sounds. That he can make Kaoru give sounds of pleasure.
If he could he would make love to Kaoru all the time... always. Just for those sounds.
His fingers are still slow, sliding in deep and deeper, parting a little before sliding out just a bit. The movement and the sensation start to get familiar to Kojirou and he starts gaining more confidence in them.]
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Hey, um, hook your fingers up a bit when you're pulling out. [ His face is burning red, because even though he doesn't mind explaining these things to Kojiro who he knows is willing to learn, it's still a little embarrassing. ]
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And the Kaoru tells him that and Kojirou freezes. His eyes are wide as he is staring at Kaoru's face, his brain processing what he had just heard. Cock twitching in excitement. His voice breaks as he speaks.]
Okay.
[And he does just that. As he pulls out he curls his fingers in an experimental way at first.]
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Fuck, deeper! You're close, keep going.
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Like this?
[He asks in a breath, watching Kaoru's every movement and squirming, and... oh god. Porn is nice, yes, but the real thing is even better. ]
You must stop being so sexy or I won't last, Kaoru...
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Then fuck me! I'm ready for it.
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He pulls out his fingers, and for a moment he's at a loss what to do. It's thanks to all those occasions when he had to scramble to put on a condom before he slid into anyone.
But this is Kaoru, who said it's okay without a condom.
This is Kaoru.
He's going to fuck Kaoru, it dawns on Kojirou once again. Then he takes the lube and coats himself all too fast and messy. Without any further hesitation, he is back between Kaoru's legs, leaning over him.]
Then, I'm gonna take you now, Kaoru...
[His voice is strained as he states that, holding Kaoru's thigh with one hand and positions himself with the other to push in. Slowly at first. Going steady, but not stopping.]
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I’m yours to take.
[ He hooks a hand beneath the knee of the leg Kojiro isn’t pressing against, opening himself and blushing brightly at the fact. Having someone between his thighs isn’t new, but having someone as sweet and caring as Kojiro definitely is. Kaoru can feel his tenderness as he pushes in slowly, thicker than his fingers but a manageable stretch. It feels like the air is being forced from his lungs, and as he stares up into Kojiro’s concentrated expression, tears well up in the corners of his eyes and force him to squeeze them shut. ]
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When he lets his cock go as it slides in halfway, he grabs at Kaoru's other thigh, just to feel his hand there. Kojirou covers it with his and leans close to Kaoru again.
His expression makes his heart twist. Is he in pain? Or is it good? Because Kojirou feels so good his legs are already going numb.]
Kaoru, you feel so fucking good.
[Kojirou hisses and leans in to kiss Kaoru's forehead, working his hips in small thrust for now, just like he did with his fingers. He groans as all that movement and the closeness of Kaoru is already getting too overwhelming. He tilts his head to kiss the other's cheek, then down his jaw, just to arrive at his lips again. Kojirou is breathless yet he demands a slow kiss as if wanting to be closer to Kaoru than he already is.]
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I love you, Kojiro. [ He moves his hand to tangle his fingers with Kojiro's, looking up at him with a watery smile. The first thrust makes him gasp in surprise and tighten up a bit, but he wills himself to relax again. ] Fuck, you feel good, too. G-go slowly for now.
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I love you too, Kaoru.
[He whispers, his throat is dry so his voice cracks. He leans in to kiss Kaoru again, laughing too.]
Love you too.
[He repeats, as he slows down, out of rhythm still. He is trying to get used to all the sensations too, all that's happening, and trying to make it good for Kaoru too. Because, god Kojirou feels good...]
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God, I’m never letting you go after this. [ He laughs and rolls his hips experimentally, moaning when it stretches him in all the right ways. ] You can move, Kojiro, I won’t break.
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[Kojirou laughs breathless too, though it turns into a moan as Kaoru moves his hips. His heart is beating so fast Kojirou is not sure it will ever calm down after this. He feels it in all his body, along with the sharp jolts of pleasure he gets as he thrusts in. So this is love. A form of love. It must be. Because he is so happy he could die. It's exactly what he wanted, what he needed, what they both needed... And Kojirou swears to do it again and again so Kaoru will never forget how much he loves him.
With a deep breath he picks up his pace, closer to one that his body demands.]
I only- I want it good for you. Want it to be the best you have.
[He speaks and it must be the high of sex, he admits it, all that raw need and maybe the need to prove too. Then he hitches one of Kaoru's leg up his shoulder so he can reach around to wrap his hand around his dick. It's hot and hard in his hand, making Koirou breathless once again.]
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Tensing at the thought, at the implications of it, he reaches up to run his hands through Kojiro’s hair. He doesn’t know how to articulate it, but the fact that he’s even thinking about it that way means he’s already succeeded. Now isn’t the time to bring up Ainosuke or his selfish views on love and sex; this moment is for Kojiro and Kaoru alone. He’s about to say so when Kojiro adjusts their position and it makes him sink even deeper into Kaoru right as he touches his cock. Back arching, he moans sharply at the sudden spike in sensation. ] Oh god, you already are. Kojiro, you feel so amazing.
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His body alarms him all too suddenly that Kojirou has barely any time to react. He picks up his pace and falling out of rhythm as he is reaching for his orgasm in an all too rushed manner. His voice is thick with arousal and warning as he calls Kaoru's name.]
Kaoru- I- I'm gonna, I'm close, I'm so close, I'm gonna come--
[He rambles and his cheeks burn, his whole body burns, but he can't stop now.]
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Good, want you to— Want you to come inside me.
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He calls Kaoru's name and his hips snap against the other all too sharply. Kojirou's eyes flutter shut and he leans his forehead down on Kaoru's chest as he comes. It feels like an all too fast roller coaster ride, with always one more peak to take.
Even in all his pleasure, Kojirou is trying his best to at least stroke the other the best he can.]
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