[With a soft 'fuck' Kojirou does as Kaoru pleads. His hand is trembling as he goes deeper, and he picks up his pace too. Now that he has some idea how this is going he has to admit this is terribly different from porn, not even close!]
Like this?
[He asks in a breath, watching Kaoru's every movement and squirming, and... oh god. Porn is nice, yes, but the real thing is even better. ]
You must stop being so sexy or I won't last, Kaoru...
[ He has a retort poised on the tip of his tongue, ready to chastize Kojiro for thinking Kaoru is putting any effort into looking sexy. There's also a point to be made for not trying to last, for giving in when they feel pleasure and not trying to perform to some kind of standard or expectation. All of that goes out the window when Kojiro drags the tips of both fingers over his prostate and stars explode into Kaoru's vision. He gasps so quickly that it catches in his throat as his back arches, the sound escaping a moment later when it dissolves into moans and curses. Just like that, he's gone from cautious preparation to desperate need. ]
[The noise Kojirou makes when Kaoru demands that is something he is not proud of. But the ringing of his ears he gets from excitement makes him forget it in a moment.
He pulls out his fingers, and for a moment he's at a loss what to do. It's thanks to all those occasions when he had to scramble to put on a condom before he slid into anyone.
But this is Kaoru, who said it's okay without a condom.
This is Kaoru.
He's going to fuck Kaoru, it dawns on Kojirou once again. Then he takes the lube and coats himself all too fast and messy. Without any further hesitation, he is back between Kaoru's legs, leaning over him.]
Then, I'm gonna take you now, Kaoru...
[His voice is strained as he states that, holding Kaoru's thigh with one hand and positions himself with the other to push in. Slowly at first. Going steady, but not stopping.]
[ Moaning when he’s left feeling empty, Kaoru looks up at Kojiro as he hesitates. This is the point of no return, which he’s probably realizing; once they do this together, their relationship will be different than ever before. When Kojiro stutters back into motion, Kaoru smiles up at him and waits until he’s closer to lean up long enough steal a kiss. ]
I’m yours to take.
[ He hooks a hand beneath the knee of the leg Kojiro isn’t pressing against, opening himself and blushing brightly at the fact. Having someone between his thighs isn’t new, but having someone as sweet and caring as Kojiro definitely is. Kaoru can feel his tenderness as he pushes in slowly, thicker than his fingers but a manageable stretch. It feels like the air is being forced from his lungs, and as he stares up into Kojiro’s concentrated expression, tears well up in the corners of his eyes and force him to squeeze them shut. ]
[As Kojirou is sliding in, he has to note that two fingers may not have been enough... He should've told it to Kaoru. Not to brag, but for his own safety. But he can't stop now, not anymore. Not after Kaoru just said that.
When he lets his cock go as it slides in halfway, he grabs at Kaoru's other thigh, just to feel his hand there. Kojirou covers it with his and leans close to Kaoru again.
His expression makes his heart twist. Is he in pain? Or is it good? Because Kojirou feels so good his legs are already going numb.]
Kaoru, you feel so fucking good.
[Kojirou hisses and leans in to kiss Kaoru's forehead, working his hips in small thrust for now, just like he did with his fingers. He groans as all that movement and the closeness of Kaoru is already getting too overwhelming. He tilts his head to kiss the other's cheek, then down his jaw, just to arrive at his lips again. Kojirou is breathless yet he demands a slow kiss as if wanting to be closer to Kaoru than he already is.]
[ His size is worthy of bragging about, and Kaoru can feel every bit of it as Kojiro presses deeper inside of him. It steals his breath away, and it's not until Kojiro's hand covers his own that he remembers to breathe. That helps him relax, and he continues pulling in steady breaths through his nose and exhaling slowly through his mouth. There's pain, but more than that, his tears have a very different source. ]
I love you, Kojiro. [ He moves his hand to tangle his fingers with Kojiro's, looking up at him with a watery smile. The first thrust makes him gasp in surprise and tighten up a bit, but he wills himself to relax again. ] Fuck, you feel good, too. G-go slowly for now.
[Kojirou's throat suddenly tightens. Not because of the nerves, but because Kaoru just confessed and he- Did he do that before? Kojirou always knew that Kaoru loves him, but hearing it out loud is very different. It hits almost like a punch.]
I love you too, Kaoru.
[He whispers, his throat is dry so his voice cracks. He leans in to kiss Kaoru again, laughing too.]
Love you too.
[He repeats, as he slows down, out of rhythm still. He is trying to get used to all the sensations too, all that's happening, and trying to make it good for Kaoru too. Because, god Kojirou feels good...]
[ The words echoed back at him run through his body like electricity, making him shiver as he clings to Kojiro. Even without moving much, being like this together is it’s own pleasure. He can feel every line of Kojiro’s body, both inside and above him, and he presses closer to feel more of that. His fingertips press into Kojiro’s back and trace over the muscles there, careful not to scratch his skin while he has the mind to think of it. Already he’s addicted to this, the connection he feels beyond the desire for climax; this is sex with love on both sides, true and deep and precious to Kaoru. ]
God, I’m never letting you go after this. [ He laughs and rolls his hips experimentally, moaning when it stretches him in all the right ways. ] You can move, Kojiro, I won’t break.
[Kojirou laughs breathless too, though it turns into a moan as Kaoru moves his hips. His heart is beating so fast Kojirou is not sure it will ever calm down after this. He feels it in all his body, along with the sharp jolts of pleasure he gets as he thrusts in. So this is love. A form of love. It must be. Because he is so happy he could die. It's exactly what he wanted, what he needed, what they both needed... And Kojirou swears to do it again and again so Kaoru will never forget how much he loves him.
With a deep breath he picks up his pace, closer to one that his body demands.]
I only- I want it good for you. Want it to be the best you have.
[He speaks and it must be the high of sex, he admits it, all that raw need and maybe the need to prove too. Then he hitches one of Kaoru's leg up his shoulder so he can reach around to wrap his hand around his dick. It's hot and hard in his hand, making Koirou breathless once again.]
[ Kaoru never imagined he’d be laughing during sex, yet here he is, so full of love and happiness that it spills over and out of him in the form of giddy chuckles. He kisses Kojiro when he can, when he isn’t gasping for breath or mumbling soft words of encouragement to him. His body grows more and more pliant as the tension melts away and he’s left with nothing but pleasure.
Tensing at the thought, at the implications of it, he reaches up to run his hands through Kojiro’s hair. He doesn’t know how to articulate it, but the fact that he’s even thinking about it that way means he’s already succeeded. Now isn’t the time to bring up Ainosuke or his selfish views on love and sex; this moment is for Kojiro and Kaoru alone. He’s about to say so when Kojiro adjusts their position and it makes him sink even deeper into Kaoru right as he touches his cock. Back arching, he moans sharply at the sudden spike in sensation. ] Oh god, you already are. Kojiro, you feel so amazing.
[Kojirou told Kaoru that he loves him, but he hears him laugh and moan and move under him he feels like he has to tell him again because since then he loves him more! With every kiss, with every glance, he loves Kaoru even more.
His body alarms him all too suddenly that Kojirou has barely any time to react. He picks up his pace and falling out of rhythm as he is reaching for his orgasm in an all too rushed manner. His voice is thick with arousal and warning as he calls Kaoru's name.]
[ It’s easy to tell from the change in pace that Kojiro is getting close. His hips snap forward with more force, faster for their lack of planned beat. Kaoru digs his fingers into his back and drags him closer. He can feel his own orgasm on the horizon, more distant than Kojiro’s but closer now as he’s fucked between twin sensations of his hips and his hand. Moaning his name, he does his best to meet each thrust, but it’s difficult to keep up with the rapid pace. ]
[Those words must the sexiest thing Kojirou has ever heard. They must be because he feels breathless. As if his lungs are all too small to contain all that air he wants to pump into them. Sweat rolls down his temples and back from the intensity of it all.
He calls Kaoru's name and his hips snap against the other all too sharply. Kojirou's eyes flutter shut and he leans his forehead down on Kaoru's chest as he comes. It feels like an all too fast roller coaster ride, with always one more peak to take.
Even in all his pleasure, Kojirou is trying his best to at least stroke the other the best he can.]
[ When Kojiro bends over him, Kaoru drags his fingers up the back of his neck to sink into his hair and hold him close. He feels when his orgasm hits and the way it shakes through them both, warmth filling Kaoru and making him moan Kojiro’s name. He’s so close, hips bucking down as if he’ll be able to get Kojiro any deeper and angling to rub his prostate against his cock before it softens. All the while he babbles meaningless phrases about needing more and wanting Kojiro and being close. Finally, his pleasure crests as Kojiro rubs the sensitive spot beneath the head of his cock and he comes into his hand as his back arches off of the bed and up towards Kojiro. ]
[When the waves are slowly calming down, only then Kojirou has the strength to even moan. He feels Kaoru's hand in his hair this time, holding him close.
It's the closes Kojirou has ever been to Kaoru he has to realize. And then he feels Kaoru come too. One of his arms immediately goes around his waist but his hand never leaves his cock. He feels his peak, warm and thick in his hand, and Kojirou's mouth waters. His cock also wants to jump back into action right then, making him groan in pain and pleasure at the same time.
He doesn't move for a while, he just can't. All his limbs are heavy and his head is light; it feels like the effects of some drugs but really, it's just Kaoru.]
Kaoru.
[Kojirou calls his name again and puts both his arms around him this time, pulling him tight to him, as if what they had done was just not enough. His forehead is still resting against Kaoru's chest. It's hot, and sweaty and messy, but this is Kaoru's warmth, and his scent and everything of his. And now it all belongs to Kojirou.]
[ Kojiro wraps around him as he shivers through the aftershocks of his orgasm, and Kaoru has never felt so cherished before. It’s almost ironic, given they just had sex for the first time and he’s always associated the act with carnal desire rather than love and care. Everything with Kojiro is different than what he’s used to, and while he totally expects them to have plenty of those carnal encounters as well, this is so... perfect. He wraps his arms tightly around him, encouraging him to stay close and relax. Kaoru can take the weight of him on top and even welcomes the almost stifling proximity. ]
I love you, too, Kojiro. [ He smiles as he coaxes his head closer, up until he can kiss him and then tuck his face against his shoulder. ] Fuck, don’t pull out yet, you feel too good.
[Kojirou kisses back and snuggles close, feeling he would never want to leave this bed now. He chuckles at Kaoru's demand, moving his hips just a tad, to show he is not gonna go anywhere. Not anymore.]
Then I'm staying. As if I can move right now.
[He mutters into Kaoru's shoulder, settling against him.]
This was fucking amazing... You're amazing. Can't wait to do it again.
[ Kaoru groans at the shift in weight as well as Kojiro pressing impossibly deeper. With a little movement of his own, he lowers his leg from where it had been pressed against his chest and instead wraps both legs around Kojiro’s waist to keep him close. They’re going to get cold and sticky, but for now, he’s perfectly content to stay the way they are.
Humming as he cards his fingers through Kojiro’s hair, he chuckles softly. ] Fucking a guy for the first time wasn’t bad then?
[Kojirou shivers at all the movement, still all too sensitive from all that had happened. But he chuckles still, because yeah, wow first time with a guy...]
Yeah, should have started with this one instead of chicks huh.
[He jokes shaking his head, then kissing at Kaoru's shoulder.]
[ Pawing at the blanket beneath them, he pulls at it until it’s almost free and then rolls to the side. He clings tightly to Kojiro, groaning when they shift but don’t part, and then drags the covers over the both of them. The warmth keeps him pliant as he kisses the side of Kojiro’s neck and then bites down to leave a mark. ]
It felt like the first time for me. You’re so different from... before. I wish I had started with you.
[If the moving around wasn't bad enough, the bite definitely is too much on Kojirou's sensitive skin. He jumps, hissing. But then he settles again, not letting Kaoru go even under the warmth of the covers.
Though he feels a bit of guilt stir in him when Kaoru talks. Yes, maybe if he was faster, braver, or something...]
You still ended up with me, in my bed. And soon we're gonna leave together. That's all I care about now.
[ Kaoru sighs happily at that, comforted both by Kojiro’s closeness and his words. They can really start a new life together, and even if he doubts that they’ll stay away from Japan forever, he’s confident that they’ll make things work. It’s certainly scary and something he won’t have any control over, but knowing that Kojiro will be there with him makes it easier to jump off the deep end. ]
Yeah, me too. You’re really stuck with me, after all!
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Like this?
[He asks in a breath, watching Kaoru's every movement and squirming, and... oh god. Porn is nice, yes, but the real thing is even better. ]
You must stop being so sexy or I won't last, Kaoru...
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Then fuck me! I'm ready for it.
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He pulls out his fingers, and for a moment he's at a loss what to do. It's thanks to all those occasions when he had to scramble to put on a condom before he slid into anyone.
But this is Kaoru, who said it's okay without a condom.
This is Kaoru.
He's going to fuck Kaoru, it dawns on Kojirou once again. Then he takes the lube and coats himself all too fast and messy. Without any further hesitation, he is back between Kaoru's legs, leaning over him.]
Then, I'm gonna take you now, Kaoru...
[His voice is strained as he states that, holding Kaoru's thigh with one hand and positions himself with the other to push in. Slowly at first. Going steady, but not stopping.]
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I’m yours to take.
[ He hooks a hand beneath the knee of the leg Kojiro isn’t pressing against, opening himself and blushing brightly at the fact. Having someone between his thighs isn’t new, but having someone as sweet and caring as Kojiro definitely is. Kaoru can feel his tenderness as he pushes in slowly, thicker than his fingers but a manageable stretch. It feels like the air is being forced from his lungs, and as he stares up into Kojiro’s concentrated expression, tears well up in the corners of his eyes and force him to squeeze them shut. ]
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When he lets his cock go as it slides in halfway, he grabs at Kaoru's other thigh, just to feel his hand there. Kojirou covers it with his and leans close to Kaoru again.
His expression makes his heart twist. Is he in pain? Or is it good? Because Kojirou feels so good his legs are already going numb.]
Kaoru, you feel so fucking good.
[Kojirou hisses and leans in to kiss Kaoru's forehead, working his hips in small thrust for now, just like he did with his fingers. He groans as all that movement and the closeness of Kaoru is already getting too overwhelming. He tilts his head to kiss the other's cheek, then down his jaw, just to arrive at his lips again. Kojirou is breathless yet he demands a slow kiss as if wanting to be closer to Kaoru than he already is.]
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I love you, Kojiro. [ He moves his hand to tangle his fingers with Kojiro's, looking up at him with a watery smile. The first thrust makes him gasp in surprise and tighten up a bit, but he wills himself to relax again. ] Fuck, you feel good, too. G-go slowly for now.
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I love you too, Kaoru.
[He whispers, his throat is dry so his voice cracks. He leans in to kiss Kaoru again, laughing too.]
Love you too.
[He repeats, as he slows down, out of rhythm still. He is trying to get used to all the sensations too, all that's happening, and trying to make it good for Kaoru too. Because, god Kojirou feels good...]
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God, I’m never letting you go after this. [ He laughs and rolls his hips experimentally, moaning when it stretches him in all the right ways. ] You can move, Kojiro, I won’t break.
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[Kojirou laughs breathless too, though it turns into a moan as Kaoru moves his hips. His heart is beating so fast Kojirou is not sure it will ever calm down after this. He feels it in all his body, along with the sharp jolts of pleasure he gets as he thrusts in. So this is love. A form of love. It must be. Because he is so happy he could die. It's exactly what he wanted, what he needed, what they both needed... And Kojirou swears to do it again and again so Kaoru will never forget how much he loves him.
With a deep breath he picks up his pace, closer to one that his body demands.]
I only- I want it good for you. Want it to be the best you have.
[He speaks and it must be the high of sex, he admits it, all that raw need and maybe the need to prove too. Then he hitches one of Kaoru's leg up his shoulder so he can reach around to wrap his hand around his dick. It's hot and hard in his hand, making Koirou breathless once again.]
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Tensing at the thought, at the implications of it, he reaches up to run his hands through Kojiro’s hair. He doesn’t know how to articulate it, but the fact that he’s even thinking about it that way means he’s already succeeded. Now isn’t the time to bring up Ainosuke or his selfish views on love and sex; this moment is for Kojiro and Kaoru alone. He’s about to say so when Kojiro adjusts their position and it makes him sink even deeper into Kaoru right as he touches his cock. Back arching, he moans sharply at the sudden spike in sensation. ] Oh god, you already are. Kojiro, you feel so amazing.
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His body alarms him all too suddenly that Kojirou has barely any time to react. He picks up his pace and falling out of rhythm as he is reaching for his orgasm in an all too rushed manner. His voice is thick with arousal and warning as he calls Kaoru's name.]
Kaoru- I- I'm gonna, I'm close, I'm so close, I'm gonna come--
[He rambles and his cheeks burn, his whole body burns, but he can't stop now.]
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Good, want you to— Want you to come inside me.
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He calls Kaoru's name and his hips snap against the other all too sharply. Kojirou's eyes flutter shut and he leans his forehead down on Kaoru's chest as he comes. It feels like an all too fast roller coaster ride, with always one more peak to take.
Even in all his pleasure, Kojirou is trying his best to at least stroke the other the best he can.]
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It's the closes Kojirou has ever been to Kaoru he has to realize. And then he feels Kaoru come too. One of his arms immediately goes around his waist but his hand never leaves his cock. He feels his peak, warm and thick in his hand, and Kojirou's mouth waters. His cock also wants to jump back into action right then, making him groan in pain and pleasure at the same time.
He doesn't move for a while, he just can't. All his limbs are heavy and his head is light; it feels like the effects of some drugs but really, it's just Kaoru.]
Kaoru.
[Kojirou calls his name again and puts both his arms around him this time, pulling him tight to him, as if what they had done was just not enough. His forehead is still resting against Kaoru's chest. It's hot, and sweaty and messy, but this is Kaoru's warmth, and his scent and everything of his. And now it all belongs to Kojirou.]
I love you.
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I love you, too, Kojiro. [ He smiles as he coaxes his head closer, up until he can kiss him and then tuck his face against his shoulder. ] Fuck, don’t pull out yet, you feel too good.
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Then I'm staying. As if I can move right now.
[He mutters into Kaoru's shoulder, settling against him.]
This was fucking amazing... You're amazing. Can't wait to do it again.
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Humming as he cards his fingers through Kojiro’s hair, he chuckles softly. ] Fucking a guy for the first time wasn’t bad then?
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Yeah, should have started with this one instead of chicks huh.
[He jokes shaking his head, then kissing at Kaoru's shoulder.]
But no, no I'm glad it was with you first.
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It felt like the first time for me. You’re so different from... before. I wish I had started with you.
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Though he feels a bit of guilt stir in him when Kaoru talks. Yes, maybe if he was faster, braver, or something...]
You still ended up with me, in my bed. And soon we're gonna leave together. That's all I care about now.
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Yeah, me too. You’re really stuck with me, after all!
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[Kojirou grins and leans in to kiss at Kaoru's cheek, then attempts to tilt his head to kiss his lips.]