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I'm still here, right? No fight we've had has been able to change how I feel about you. Even that really bad one we had a few years ago. I've been in love with you since we were stupid kids, Kaoru, I'm not going anywhere. I'm not walking away from this no matter what happens. You're worth every bit of effort to fix things if it goes wrong.
[ There's no better sound in the entire world than Kojiro's name dripping in moans from Kaoru's lips. Kojiro's thought it over, long and hard, and he's absolutely certain of it. Kaoru makes a lot of nice sounds like this -- his choked whimpers, his needy groans, his sharp gasps and whines -- but Kojiro's name? That's what he likes to hear best.
Kaoru must know. He says it -- moans it -- so often, and it gets him exactly what he wants. Like now, with the hard drive of Kojiro's hips and the hand at his throat. Kojiro knows Kaoru wants that, loves it, and he's far too eager to oblige. It's hard not to, when Kaoru pushes him to the edge of such mindless need, forces him into that place, without even trying. And Kaoru knows that too; knows Kojiro is at his mercy so quickly and easily and happily.
It's give and take. Perfectly. Even if Kojiro still feels like he short-circuits every time Kaoru bares his skin.
But his nipples aren't the only piercings Kojiro wants to feel. He keeps Kaoru anchored with the hand on his chest, elbow braced into the crook of his hip, as the hand on his throat drifts up again. His fore and middle fingers press at Kaoru's lower lip, the rest gripping his jaw to force his mouth open and push both digits inside. ]
Be nice. [ Kojiro growls into Kaoru's ear, because he half expects a bite despite his cock pistoning so well into Kaoru's ass. ]
Pretend they're my cock. Lemme feel that tongue, sweetness.
Kaoru must know. He says it -- moans it -- so often, and it gets him exactly what he wants. Like now, with the hard drive of Kojiro's hips and the hand at his throat. Kojiro knows Kaoru wants that, loves it, and he's far too eager to oblige. It's hard not to, when Kaoru pushes him to the edge of such mindless need, forces him into that place, without even trying. And Kaoru knows that too; knows Kojiro is at his mercy so quickly and easily and happily.
It's give and take. Perfectly. Even if Kojiro still feels like he short-circuits every time Kaoru bares his skin.
But his nipples aren't the only piercings Kojiro wants to feel. He keeps Kaoru anchored with the hand on his chest, elbow braced into the crook of his hip, as the hand on his throat drifts up again. His fore and middle fingers press at Kaoru's lower lip, the rest gripping his jaw to force his mouth open and push both digits inside. ]
Be nice. [ Kojiro growls into Kaoru's ear, because he half expects a bite despite his cock pistoning so well into Kaoru's ass. ]
Pretend they're my cock. Lemme feel that tongue, sweetness.
[Kojirou follows the movement of Kaoru's hand, and so wants to follow it with his tongue too. It's like he wants not only just touch but taste him all the time. Though his remark makes him blush from the back of his neck through his ears to his cheeks, he can feel it.
Kaoru is warm inside, warmer than Kojirou thought. His eyes are glued to his face as he slides his finger deeper. He can feel Kaoru strain, so he keeps it slow, but keeps at it. He wonders if there will be a time when he'll be able to make Kaoru come just on his fingers, how hot that would be. But Kojirou knows he needs a lot of practice for that. Practice he is willing to do, oh yes.]
Does it- does it feel good?
[Kojirou can't help to ask as he is slowly fucking Kaoru with one finger for now.]
Kaoru is warm inside, warmer than Kojirou thought. His eyes are glued to his face as he slides his finger deeper. He can feel Kaoru strain, so he keeps it slow, but keeps at it. He wonders if there will be a time when he'll be able to make Kaoru come just on his fingers, how hot that would be. But Kojirou knows he needs a lot of practice for that. Practice he is willing to do, oh yes.]
Does it- does it feel good?
[Kojirou can't help to ask as he is slowly fucking Kaoru with one finger for now.]
It's just part of life, isn't it? We might have the benefit of knowing one another for as long as we have, but that doesn't mean we won't stumble upon something that'll make us fight in a different way. It's not so much assuming something will go wrong, but more preparing for the future when we move in together and stumble upon something that'll make us angry or scared or something.
[ Kaoru moans as the finger pushes a little deeper, eyes closing with the pleasure it brings. When he looks back up at Kojiro, he's a little startled to see him focusing on his face rather than between his legs. Somehow, it feels more intimate this way, and he blushes hot across his cheeks and the bridge of his nose. ]
Yeah, it's good. [ He squirms a bit when Kojiro's finger brushes past his prostate and Kaoru reaches blindly for his other hand. Once he finds it, he laces their fingers together and lifts them to rest on his stomach. ] Go a little deeper.
Yeah, it's good. [ He squirms a bit when Kojiro's finger brushes past his prostate and Kaoru reaches blindly for his other hand. Once he finds it, he laces their fingers together and lifts them to rest on his stomach. ] Go a little deeper.
[Kojirou smiles and he feels his blush more intense than before. He's a little alarmed when Kaoru takes his other hand, but as he is just holding it he grins. He lifts it to his lips and kisses their intervened fingers then continues as Kaoru instructed.
He pushes in deeper, slow but firmly. Pulling out almost all the way, before going back in. He slowly makes small circles, trying to open Kaoru up even more.]
Can I put in more?
[Kojirou asks when he feels less resistance from when he started. Sweat breaks on his forehead as he is trying g to keep his excitement at bay for now.]
He pushes in deeper, slow but firmly. Pulling out almost all the way, before going back in. He slowly makes small circles, trying to open Kaoru up even more.]
Can I put in more?
[Kojirou asks when he feels less resistance from when he started. Sweat breaks on his forehead as he is trying g to keep his excitement at bay for now.]
[ The sweetness of the kisses melts more of the tightness of his body, calming in how Kojiro is still so tender and... loving. It's something Kaoru hasn't fully experienced during sex, something that Ainosuke didn't seem to have a concept of and had been unwilling to practice. In contrast, Kojiro does it so naturally that it feels twice as good, opening Kaoru up physically as well as emotionally.
Gasping a little at the circles, he nods while squeezing Kojiro's hand. ] Y-yeah, one more.
Gasping a little at the circles, he nods while squeezing Kojiro's hand. ] Y-yeah, one more.
One more.
[Kojirou repeats as he pulls out and coats more of his fingers. He may overdo the amount it, but he doesn't want to hurt Kaoru, not even accidentally. So when he is back, he presses in with two fingers, looking out for Kaoru's reactions. He likes the gasps and moans he gets, he likes to know that it's him who makes Kaoru make those sounds. That he can make Kaoru give sounds of pleasure.
If he could he would make love to Kaoru all the time... always. Just for those sounds.
His fingers are still slow, sliding in deep and deeper, parting a little before sliding out just a bit. The movement and the sensation start to get familiar to Kojirou and he starts gaining more confidence in them.]
[Kojirou repeats as he pulls out and coats more of his fingers. He may overdo the amount it, but he doesn't want to hurt Kaoru, not even accidentally. So when he is back, he presses in with two fingers, looking out for Kaoru's reactions. He likes the gasps and moans he gets, he likes to know that it's him who makes Kaoru make those sounds. That he can make Kaoru give sounds of pleasure.
If he could he would make love to Kaoru all the time... always. Just for those sounds.
His fingers are still slow, sliding in deep and deeper, parting a little before sliding out just a bit. The movement and the sensation start to get familiar to Kojirou and he starts gaining more confidence in them.]
[ Whining at the loss and then biting back the noise which sounds far too desperate for what's supposed to be a tender moment, Kaoru focuses on steadying his breath as he waits for Kojiro. He's just as slow and caring when he pushes back in, this time the stretch more noticeable than before. Kaoru moves a bit, digging his heels into the bed and shifting his hips to improve the angle. Despite the pain, he also feels the building need for more yet doesn't want to push Kojiro if he needs to continue taking things slow. Something else, then, to compromise. ]
Hey, um, hook your fingers up a bit when you're pulling out. [ His face is burning red, because even though he doesn't mind explaining these things to Kojiro who he knows is willing to learn, it's still a little embarrassing. ]
Hey, um, hook your fingers up a bit when you're pulling out. [ His face is burning red, because even though he doesn't mind explaining these things to Kojiro who he knows is willing to learn, it's still a little embarrassing. ]
I think I'm still getting used to the idea of your romantic side being more than a manwhore with two women on his arms at all times! I think that it's been illegal for me to get married my entire life so I've tried not to get my hopes up about it!! And I think that I'm still worried that I'll fuck something up since I'm a mess and you'll realize you're too good to be stuck with me the rest of your life!!!
[Kojirou tries to keep up as Kaoru angles his hips, licking his lips in concentration. But it's seriously the hottest thing.
And the Kaoru tells him that and Kojirou freezes. His eyes are wide as he is staring at Kaoru's face, his brain processing what he had just heard. Cock twitching in excitement. His voice breaks as he speaks.]
Okay.
[And he does just that. As he pulls out he curls his fingers in an experimental way at first.]
And the Kaoru tells him that and Kojirou freezes. His eyes are wide as he is staring at Kaoru's face, his brain processing what he had just heard. Cock twitching in excitement. His voice breaks as he speaks.]
Okay.
[And he does just that. As he pulls out he curls his fingers in an experimental way at first.]
[ Kaoru watches nervously for a reaction, but his eyes follow Kojiro's tongue and he thinks that this is going to be okay. Kojiro hasn't seemed turned off yet, and a quick glance reassures Kaoru that yes, he's still very much hard. He's also instantly following the direction, and it's so close that Kaoru nearly sobs. It helps stretch him further, too, and after a few more loops of pushing in and then crooking his fingers on the way back, Kaoru's wiggling his hips down to get more. ]
Fuck, deeper! You're close, keep going.
Fuck, deeper! You're close, keep going.
Kaoru.
( he almost says calm down but rethinks it, thankfully, at the last second. )
You think I don't know how you are? How many nights have I stayed up with you because you can't sleep? Because you're anxious about something? You're not new to me and you're not a mess. A pain in the ass sometimes, but that's normal. So am I.
I'm an idiot, I'm uncouth, I'm not classy. You think I'm too good for you? Get a clue, you idiot, you're too good for me. But, now that I've finally, finally got you, I'm selfish enough to never let you go.
( he almost says calm down but rethinks it, thankfully, at the last second. )
You think I don't know how you are? How many nights have I stayed up with you because you can't sleep? Because you're anxious about something? You're not new to me and you're not a mess. A pain in the ass sometimes, but that's normal. So am I.
I'm an idiot, I'm uncouth, I'm not classy. You think I'm too good for you? Get a clue, you idiot, you're too good for me. But, now that I've finally, finally got you, I'm selfish enough to never let you go.
You've only seen those parts of me as a friend, what if it's too much as a lover? I'm going to be even more clingy as we go, I want you to spoil me so much and I don't want it to overwhelm you. I waited so long for you, and now I don't know how to be satisfied without potentially driving you away.
As if things like being classy or knowledgeable are important in a relationship! How is calligraphy going to help me know what you need to be happy? How is expensive taste in wine going to do anything more than annoy you? I've never done this before, Kojiro, so stop acting like I shouldn't be scared of fucking up!
As if things like being classy or knowledgeable are important in a relationship! How is calligraphy going to help me know what you need to be happy? How is expensive taste in wine going to do anything more than annoy you? I've never done this before, Kojiro, so stop acting like I shouldn't be scared of fucking up!
Look, I'm telling you that there's nothing to be scared of because I know there's nothing you can do that'll make me want to leave. I don't think you understand how long I've been waiting for you or how much I lied to myself that I was fine with staying friends and thought I could make myself forget about my own feelings.
Kaoru, we just started dating and I'm already talking about moving in and getting married. I'm the one getting annoyed and jealous about you going out to some bar without me and getting hit on by some stranger that you won't even let me go threaten. I want you only looking at me. How the hell is anything you do from here on out more clingy than that?
I want to spoil you. I already wait on you, and now I can do it more intimately than before. I want your expensive tongue to tell me about wine so I can keep it at the restaurant. You're by my side, that makes me happy. Everything else is just a bonus.
If you need me to constantly reassure you that you're not going to do something to fuck up, I'll do it. No matter how much you need to hear it, no matter how much it takes, I'll do it. Maybe it'll help me, too.
Kaoru, we just started dating and I'm already talking about moving in and getting married. I'm the one getting annoyed and jealous about you going out to some bar without me and getting hit on by some stranger that you won't even let me go threaten. I want you only looking at me. How the hell is anything you do from here on out more clingy than that?
I want to spoil you. I already wait on you, and now I can do it more intimately than before. I want your expensive tongue to tell me about wine so I can keep it at the restaurant. You're by my side, that makes me happy. Everything else is just a bonus.
If you need me to constantly reassure you that you're not going to do something to fuck up, I'll do it. No matter how much you need to hear it, no matter how much it takes, I'll do it. Maybe it'll help me, too.
This is why I wanted to wait until we were together to talk about all of this.
You better say all of this again tonight, I want to hear it straight from your lips. And I'm going to want a promise that you'll tell me what you need and you won't let me just walk over your feelings, because I'll do it and think that you like it and the last thing I want is for you to resent any of it.
You better say all of this again tonight, I want to hear it straight from your lips. And I'm going to want a promise that you'll tell me what you need and you won't let me just walk over your feelings, because I'll do it and think that you like it and the last thing I want is for you to resent any of it.
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